Your heart stopped beating six years ago today, and part of mine went with you. I don't mind; you owned that part after all.
Tomorrow is your birthday. Your 6th. Only 6 years since my lips touched your cheek and I held you so close. Wishing. Hardly believing.
Never was there a boy so loved; though I didn't ever feel your breath against my neck. It doesn't matter, and it never will. When I lift my hands to my face, I can still feel you in them.. as small as a kitten. My son.
Tomorrow I'm going to the elementary school, and I'm going to send your balloon from there. You'd start grade one in a few short days, and I wish that I could hold your hand and take you in to meet your teacher. I wish so many things.
Instead, I'll send your birthday balloon with my kiss upon it. I'll watch it until it disappears. And I'll wish. As always.
Love,
Mommy
xoxoxo
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Sending much love and big hugs across the miles honey xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Thinking about you Annie at this difficult time. I am not sure why life is so unfair and why bad things happen to good people. It is all just hard and awful sometimes...I am sure he receives all the love you are sending him.
Kathleen
Hugs.
Love you. Lots.
I will do something small to remember him today :) I know your heart has been broken, but it's grown back exponentially.
Luf ya to bits!
There are no words that I know that can take the pain away and no platitudes to make it better. Only know that I have a shoulder for you if ever you need it.
It takes a special person to make such a big impact on so many people's lives...HC was a very special little boy. We will always remember him, and we will be thinking of you and him this evening.
Thinking of you today. Big squeezes.
I can't imagine how hard this can be. My thoughts are with you ...
Sherry
Annie, love. If I could, I'd gladly take some of your pain.
All my love to you, my dear. xoxo
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